Mmm..not much to report on today. Watching anime is good though...brings out great emotions, lol. And it's interesting, watching it again, because I think about myself differently...about love differntly..than i did when i first watched it.
Anyways, didn't do much else today though...but i find it ironic that i have to get up earlier on weekends than i do on weekdays, heh...but this'll be the last weekend.
It's definitely a good way to tell who you really love, though...who you'd want to see, to be beside you if you were about to die, or if the world really was coming to an end. For me...I don't know. I'm afraid I'd say you...even now, of course there are timyoes when i wish we could start over too...but there's also someone else i care about...someone who's made me really happy.
when i think about you...i know we wouldn't be able to get back together, or if you still love me.... i keep thinking things like "it's for his sake...because this is the only way i can protect him..."...or "it's a lie"...or "it's impossible...there's just no way" or "even if the pieces don't quite fit...there's no way i can know..." and maybe i just dont know What to think anymore...about you. i cant' know...
it's true...finding someone you truly love is hard...and having them feel the same way about you...it's even more difficult.
but it's also true...if you keep running away, because you're afraid of being hurt...then you'll never be truly loved either...right?
sometimes we mistaken love for something else...jealous, or lust...or obession or idolization...i just..i just wish i knew how i felt with you.
i want to see you again...i think. i just want to know...even though..there's no way...right?
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