day 15

So..again not much I guess..

I'm glad I could talk to you.

For a while I felt better.

But then, as I said, I get mixed feelings if you see, because it'd only give me false hopes...

Back then I said, I'd do anything for you...even if it meant walking through hell, or giving up my own life. I guess this is kind of the equivalent to that. So if it means protecting your happiness, then I can be reminded that living like this, if it's for you... then its okay.

And it seems...again and again, even if I wanted to fall in love...it's like...something just isn't right...what then, am I supposed to do?...