"Just don't."

"Just don't try to get so close to her." Or something like that...

She didn't seem to understand that i don't know how else to have a relationship with someone.

Of course most people I don't keep close to me.

But even the one or two friends I consider myself close to...well...even with them I feel left out.

I feel like even with those relationships...there isn't much of anything.

Or maybe that's what friendship is supposed to be like.

Because above all else, we have to protect ourselves before others, right?

To survive.

Maybe he's right. Like I've heard so many times myself, and told so many others.. If you can't love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to?

Wanting love....but never having experienced it....

I feel like having love...and losing it...is so much more painful...

I guess some people aren't meant to find love.

And I guess some people aren't meant to be able to hold onto it. To ever find it again.