Day 8

Well, I find it highly impressive that I'm now getting tired around 9:30 pm...guess it makes sense, trying to deal with, i mean take care of my bros and working for mom and getting up at 8 AM... @_@

You're words are encouraging, by the way, and it's nice to hear from you every day. Even if we just talk about the weather. I'm happy you're at least talking to me...and even putting up with my incessant rant about my love woes lol.

While I'm still very much in love with you....I thought about what it'd be like to really try and not worry about it, to put it on hold, so I can really put myself into this new, potential love. I found myself picturing a very happy me, a me that felt like she was suddenly free, though I'm not really sure I can explain why.

I hate closing my eyes and jumping...but...I guess this is what it's come to...

If I don't know what I want...if I Can't get what I think I want...well...

might as well try a little trust in fate, right?...