My life continues to change around me. No matter how many times I think I've given up on you. But it's like...I don't want to lose you either. So these feelings remain the same. I guess no matter who I come to love, this will always be so. It's sad and painful at times, but if I can find moments of happiness, then it's okay. Then I don't mind.
I also thought I had fallen in love again. But maybe not. So I think I'm okay for now. I don't want to be hurt again. I can't take it too seriously. My sanity depends on remembering that. It's sad to keep realizing that you don't actually care. It's times like that, when I get hurt. And when I'm likely to hurt you too. I know this all too well.
But I have definitely enjoyed being with you. I like you very much. And I've had a lot of fun. Of that, I'm certain. And you've taken care of me so well-
Because we weren't in love with each other, we were able to love each other better. Because we didn't lose sight of the importance of friendship. Every day I feel like I'm learning to be strong all over again. I don't want to wait for you anymore. I'd rather fly. Without regrets. Without feeling the need to look back. And without hoping for us to return to the way we were. And I don't want to believe I'll always be sad because of that. I want to believe that small moments of happiness will always find me.
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