I'm thinking I might draw some tonight...it'd definitely give me something to do, lol...though of course, I'm kinda tempted to watch some more j-drama too...cute as they are ^_^ I'm not really in the mood to write a story...I definitely a good chunk of time and a comfortable space to do that..heh....heh...
Not much to report today..other than I wonder if I should ask mom what i should tomorrow, i don't Really want to work and just say "it slipped my mind to ask you"..but I know it'd be the right thing to do.
Still annoyed that my arrows don't fly straight, due to faulty fletching. And also that my bow now feels like a toy, compared to what I used, teaching at the summer camp...heh. Anyhoo..
Nacho today- delicious, lol. Ice cream, also delicious. And hey, even the chinese stir fry I cooked up for dinner was pretty good :) Lol.
Meh...my singing voice wasn't so great today..it coulda been better and has been. Oh well...maybe tomorrow it will be. :)
I wonder when I'll hear back from JET- I hope they send some kind of notice, 'cause I don't have my code..and I'm not even sure where to check on their site... o_o
Anyways, I guess that's it really...I wonder if your pants are still in a bunch and what made you that way. Oh well :P
It'll be two weeks from tomorrow! ^_^
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
day 18
wow, it's day 18, and 18 days left of break...that means i'm halfway thru! yay! i can do math....
anyways...not much to report on today. moved the boxes around the garage, and swept...so at least it's organized junk...not looking forward to hauling it downstairs (probably)...but anyways...excercise, right?
And ps..I fricken Hate bugs...esp in masses...i had the heeby jeebies all day...
What else? Oh yeah...did some archery...although the fletching is all wrong on the errors, but I didn't notice it before...gah.. >_< and Dick's is too far away to be able to return it on the fly...haaa...so I basically paid $30 for 6 useless arrows...go figure.
Oh. J-drama...the one i'm watching now is really cute...I mean, the characters are kinda flat, and the "moral" of the story is pushed a bit much...and it's totally overflowing with sentimentality and drama...but well, that's what ya gotta expect. Though i realized all i basically watch is either romantic (comedies), or fantasy/ sci-fi...pew, i need to expand my horizons lol...
Oh yeah...and i gotta stop sleeping in till noon..no matter how great it feels...waaah.... -_-
I realize, even if i eat more meals, and healthier, they're a lot "heavier" than what i eat at school...meaning more loaded with starches, carbs and meat... @_@...but i guess that's good for me, right?
Ice cream? Maybe ;)...what? i can still fit into my pants lol..
Anyways, two goals for the next semester- non academic related. I want to get back into my lolita self- meaning lots of crafts that hopefully help my appearance ^_^ And I want to get back into writing stories- for fun this time. Fictionpress, here i come! (hopefully) lol.
Still checkin- for ya...but don't worry, I won't forget that you don't really care. Oh well.
That's about it- :)
anyways...not much to report on today. moved the boxes around the garage, and swept...so at least it's organized junk...not looking forward to hauling it downstairs (probably)...but anyways...excercise, right?
And ps..I fricken Hate bugs...esp in masses...i had the heeby jeebies all day...
What else? Oh yeah...did some archery...although the fletching is all wrong on the errors, but I didn't notice it before...gah.. >_< and Dick's is too far away to be able to return it on the fly...haaa...so I basically paid $30 for 6 useless arrows...go figure.
Oh. J-drama...the one i'm watching now is really cute...I mean, the characters are kinda flat, and the "moral" of the story is pushed a bit much...and it's totally overflowing with sentimentality and drama...but well, that's what ya gotta expect. Though i realized all i basically watch is either romantic (comedies), or fantasy/ sci-fi...pew, i need to expand my horizons lol...
Oh yeah...and i gotta stop sleeping in till noon..no matter how great it feels...waaah.... -_-
I realize, even if i eat more meals, and healthier, they're a lot "heavier" than what i eat at school...meaning more loaded with starches, carbs and meat... @_@...but i guess that's good for me, right?
Ice cream? Maybe ;)...what? i can still fit into my pants lol..
Anyways, two goals for the next semester- non academic related. I want to get back into my lolita self- meaning lots of crafts that hopefully help my appearance ^_^ And I want to get back into writing stories- for fun this time. Fictionpress, here i come! (hopefully) lol.
Still checkin- for ya...but don't worry, I won't forget that you don't really care. Oh well.
That's about it- :)
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
day 17
even though i check..well..somehow i don't feel as clingy..or bothered. i guess this is good :)
bah slow internet lol...but at least i Have internet. something to be thankful for, right?
mom didn't tell me where to put the junk or how to organize it...i just hope she doesn't wake me up really early to do so...maybe i'll get a day off. haha...wow, i'm lazy.
on top of that...man..i need a shower... x_x but again..wow, i'm lazy...lol...
things left on the list: call grandma and thank her for the money/card...and talk to my japanese teacher about other job possibilities...oh yeah. and search for other jobs...and a place to live.
too bad...i would def have liked to be around you after graduation...coulda been fun.
bah slow internet lol...but at least i Have internet. something to be thankful for, right?
mom didn't tell me where to put the junk or how to organize it...i just hope she doesn't wake me up really early to do so...maybe i'll get a day off. haha...wow, i'm lazy.
on top of that...man..i need a shower... x_x but again..wow, i'm lazy...lol...
things left on the list: call grandma and thank her for the money/card...and talk to my japanese teacher about other job possibilities...oh yeah. and search for other jobs...and a place to live.
too bad...i would def have liked to be around you after graduation...coulda been fun.
Monday, January 4, 2010
day 16 part 2...
it hurts...so much...but hopefully this really will be the last time. if i could, i would definitely want to forget you. no matter what it does to me...
i don't know what darkness has taken over you. i wish i could save you...i loved you truly. and i tried...god, i tried...
but it's gone. there's really nothing left but broken, forgotten memories...
and so, i'll say good-bye. if it's the last thing i do...
just when i was about to give up...just when i couldn't stop the tears...there you were.
and i'll never forget your words...that showed me someone else truly understands. someone who actually makes me feel better now. someone who sees the person i wish i was. someone who believes in that me...
"you're in a lot of pain a lot of the time :/ but... you still smile"
all right then. with you by my side...even if it's just for a little while...surely i...no....surely we'll be able to make it...
thank you...
i don't know what darkness has taken over you. i wish i could save you...i loved you truly. and i tried...god, i tried...
but it's gone. there's really nothing left but broken, forgotten memories...
and so, i'll say good-bye. if it's the last thing i do...
just when i was about to give up...just when i couldn't stop the tears...there you were.
and i'll never forget your words...that showed me someone else truly understands. someone who actually makes me feel better now. someone who sees the person i wish i was. someone who believes in that me...
"you're in a lot of pain a lot of the time :/ but... you still smile"
all right then. with you by my side...even if it's just for a little while...surely i...no....surely we'll be able to make it...
thank you...
day 16
18 days left.
haha...i realize that my email wasn't as coherent as it should've been. missing words...and the like. so much for trying to be impact-ful.
but i just gotta remember that you don't actually care if we talk or see each other again. i know...i shouldn't either.
just gotta run away. like you, right? run as fast as i can...
but i'm glad i've got you here at least. talking to you keeps my sanity somewhat. duno why i suddenly feel so good just talking to you. i hope it transfers when we see each other again in person. i'm defintely ready for it. :)
and...i got one thing done on my list...one down....several bazillion to go..lolz...heeeeeeeeh....
*motorboats...ka naa...
haha...i realize that my email wasn't as coherent as it should've been. missing words...and the like. so much for trying to be impact-ful.
but i just gotta remember that you don't actually care if we talk or see each other again. i know...i shouldn't either.
just gotta run away. like you, right? run as fast as i can...
but i'm glad i've got you here at least. talking to you keeps my sanity somewhat. duno why i suddenly feel so good just talking to you. i hope it transfers when we see each other again in person. i'm defintely ready for it. :)
and...i got one thing done on my list...one down....several bazillion to go..lolz...heeeeeeeeh....
*motorboats...ka naa...
Sunday, January 3, 2010
day 15
So..again not much I guess..
I'm glad I could talk to you.
For a while I felt better.
But then, as I said, I get mixed feelings if you see, because it'd only give me false hopes...
Back then I said, I'd do anything for you...even if it meant walking through hell, or giving up my own life. I guess this is kind of the equivalent to that. So if it means protecting your happiness, then I can be reminded that living like this, if it's for you... then its okay.
And it seems...again and again, even if I wanted to fall in love...it's like...something just isn't right...what then, am I supposed to do?...
I'm glad I could talk to you.
For a while I felt better.
But then, as I said, I get mixed feelings if you see, because it'd only give me false hopes...
Back then I said, I'd do anything for you...even if it meant walking through hell, or giving up my own life. I guess this is kind of the equivalent to that. So if it means protecting your happiness, then I can be reminded that living like this, if it's for you... then its okay.
And it seems...again and again, even if I wanted to fall in love...it's like...something just isn't right...what then, am I supposed to do?...
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Day 14
...and it seems i've missed a couple days...again.
but there's not really much to say.
sometimes i miss you a lot. sometimes i feel like it'd be okay to move on. and what i'd say to you varies...
but i still want to see you.
been too cold really to do archery. unfortunately. and it looks like it'll be that way for a while...
odd as it is to say it, i'll miss my sis, even if it means more privacy...heh.
still haven't gotten anything done on my list..*sigh*
but there's not really much to say.
sometimes i miss you a lot. sometimes i feel like it'd be okay to move on. and what i'd say to you varies...
but i still want to see you.
been too cold really to do archery. unfortunately. and it looks like it'll be that way for a while...
odd as it is to say it, i'll miss my sis, even if it means more privacy...heh.
still haven't gotten anything done on my list..*sigh*
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